Sometimes we need things, sometimes we want things, and sometimes we wish for these wants…. we wish for the moment when a dream becomes reality…but we know that this dream is only a dream, and it is in that moment that reality is as real as ever.

Sometimes, I wish for things too…

I wish for nice legs

I wish for pretty toes and feet

I wish for even hips and a straight spine

I wish for the grace of a ballerina

I wish to wear high heels like all of the other fashionistas

I wish to strut a catwalk with an impeccable stride

I wish to sprint, to run faster than a rush of adrenaline

I wish to play soccer, to really play soccer

These wishes are mine, I have longed for these to be true for me quite often…but I am writing this tonight because I also want you to know that these wishes are simply my fantasies. Something to smile about. Would like be better if my dreams were my reality? Maybe. But that is why they are defined as fantasies…they are meant to be better, to be unrealistic, and a little bit irrational. So when I do long for these things to be true, I think to myself, “would I even be the same person if I was a dancer, fashionista, or even if I was a runway model, or a runner, or an athelete?” Granted, my physical health would be more stable, and my future health– a bit more secure if I did not have to worry about my weak hips or my stiff knees and ankles…but this is me and I am proud of who I have become!

Well, I wrote this about two days ago when I was feeling a little yucky inside and had to let this sit with me because I don’t know how this will come across to some of you TeenCPers. I just know that I want to be real with everyone and show that I’m not always “happy go lucky” about my CP–I have my moments when I wish for things to be different, but all in all I know that CP has made me stronger because I have learned not to take the small things for granted. And I hope you can relate to that because that is what I really wish for.

I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas and spent some time with your family and friends. Let’s bring in the new year on a good note, TeenCP! Here we come 2012.

I don’t know much yet since it all happened so fast, but I am going to be interviewed tomorrow morning by a national television program about TeenCP and everything I do and have done to get to where I am…I am nervous, but what a great opportunity and solid way to finish the year! I hope this brings more awareness to all us teens out there dealing with disabilities…REPRESENT!

Talk soon…stay cool kids–

-Katy